oh no...its been a long time since i blog...lots of stuffs happened between this time...i dunno if im relieved that the whole thing is oer now...oh yeah...thanks matty...i read your message only like now lah...so embarrassing...yeah i know...no reasons no nothing...pretty shitty i guess...but cheer up matilda...haha..there's still admirers around huh? if you know what i mean...
yeap...call me selfish or whatever...i dun care...i dun care about your exams? if you think that way fine..i dun care anymore...you said you will think about it...i waited...i stopped myself from thinking about stuff...i blocked everybody out for the whole period of about 7 months of relationship and 3months of waitin...now the last thing you wanna say to me is im just a possesion...im nothing...im just something that you have...that you are afraid to lose...YOU afraid to lose me thats why you told me to wait and you just held on to something you are not even sure you can really have or you can handle...i dun see this as a betrayal..but if you see this whole thing...you know what selfish is...and you are telling me that i am selfish? thats an irony man...anyway...now that im free...and i know that i wont look for you anymore...i just felt strange that i felt nothing at all...nothing after you said those words that would make other's heart bleed...i felt numbness...then i told myself that is enough...i realised im quite patient...other would choose to be in depression...i see this as a new start...so...yeap...bye...good luck for your O levels...hope you get good grades...yeah...and congrats to having a good prelims results...just one advise...dun expect others to give in to you as much as i did...maybe you should just change...and...yeah...dun compare grades with friends...worked harder and others did better...blah blah blah...thats total bull...
graduation was great...the feeling of having to leave my favorite teachers,classmates and friends is quite sad...but still people move on...so graduation is not such a bad thing after all...
mrs tan my gp teacher was a great help to me...some may be surprised i would actually say that because i used to hate her alot...haha...but as lessons with her increased in number...i realised she is a great teacher...her remedials helped me alot...this is the only time i dun hate remedials actually...oh yeah...and miss giam...hehe...so cute...so often in class i just look at her blankly and block out everything she said...yeah..definitely my favorite teacher...because she cares alot about her students...and the two geography teachers who made lessons really interesting...ms lim and miss ng...during lessons there are always laughter and also lots of stupid answers from us...and these answers never fails to amuse them...hahaha...
ok...here's something i never told anyone...lol...its J1 and we went to our first basketball practice in SPE...thats the time where michael clifford and lots of people are still around...basketball in school is definitely the best thing that happened in school to me...i would definitely not exchange those memories for anything else in this world...ok..i felt quite stupid right now...because i spent so much time on this girl...that i impulsively decided to be the one when i saw her...i cant say i liked her at the instant i see her...but after awhile i got carried away...then i liked her...we got together...but there were lots of problems...its not because of that that i tot someone else out there might be the one instead...there's not much people i can say i like...but there's one i liked even before her...but i just dunno why i didnt tell her...or make any move...i just kept it inside...and yeah...the first time i saw her i already thought she is cute...haha...sometimes i think...if i go for her before i see cheryl...maybe i wont even be in this stupid relationship after all..but you cant just rewind and go back...as long as i still like her...its never too late i guess...
haha...sorry for the wrong movie....but i tot wimbledon rox too...sorry la...so guilty now... thanks for yesterday...i enjoyed it alot...
yeap...call me selfish or whatever...i dun care...i dun care about your exams? if you think that way fine..i dun care anymore...you said you will think about it...i waited...i stopped myself from thinking about stuff...i blocked everybody out for the whole period of about 7 months of relationship and 3months of waitin...now the last thing you wanna say to me is im just a possesion...im nothing...im just something that you have...that you are afraid to lose...YOU afraid to lose me thats why you told me to wait and you just held on to something you are not even sure you can really have or you can handle...i dun see this as a betrayal..but if you see this whole thing...you know what selfish is...and you are telling me that i am selfish? thats an irony man...anyway...now that im free...and i know that i wont look for you anymore...i just felt strange that i felt nothing at all...nothing after you said those words that would make other's heart bleed...i felt numbness...then i told myself that is enough...i realised im quite patient...other would choose to be in depression...i see this as a new start...so...yeap...bye...good luck for your O levels...hope you get good grades...yeah...and congrats to having a good prelims results...just one advise...dun expect others to give in to you as much as i did...maybe you should just change...and...yeah...dun compare grades with friends...worked harder and others did better...blah blah blah...thats total bull...
graduation was great...the feeling of having to leave my favorite teachers,classmates and friends is quite sad...but still people move on...so graduation is not such a bad thing after all...
mrs tan my gp teacher was a great help to me...some may be surprised i would actually say that because i used to hate her alot...haha...but as lessons with her increased in number...i realised she is a great teacher...her remedials helped me alot...this is the only time i dun hate remedials actually...oh yeah...and miss giam...hehe...so cute...so often in class i just look at her blankly and block out everything she said...yeah..definitely my favorite teacher...because she cares alot about her students...and the two geography teachers who made lessons really interesting...ms lim and miss ng...during lessons there are always laughter and also lots of stupid answers from us...and these answers never fails to amuse them...hahaha...
ok...here's something i never told anyone...lol...its J1 and we went to our first basketball practice in SPE...thats the time where michael clifford and lots of people are still around...basketball in school is definitely the best thing that happened in school to me...i would definitely not exchange those memories for anything else in this world...ok..i felt quite stupid right now...because i spent so much time on this girl...that i impulsively decided to be the one when i saw her...i cant say i liked her at the instant i see her...but after awhile i got carried away...then i liked her...we got together...but there were lots of problems...its not because of that that i tot someone else out there might be the one instead...there's not much people i can say i like...but there's one i liked even before her...but i just dunno why i didnt tell her...or make any move...i just kept it inside...and yeah...the first time i saw her i already thought she is cute...haha...sometimes i think...if i go for her before i see cheryl...maybe i wont even be in this stupid relationship after all..but you cant just rewind and go back...as long as i still like her...its never too late i guess...
haha...sorry for the wrong movie....but i tot wimbledon rox too...sorry la...so guilty now... thanks for yesterday...i enjoyed it alot...
